why????

i was watching the news and a new story came on "to young to thin" and all my attention was brought to the tv. why? can't girls love themselves the way they are? why? do they have to see all the flaws? why? do they have to harm themselves? after watching that new story on the news i was actually in tears. god made every single girl beautiful the way they are if he wanted a girl to be skinner then they would've. but the thing that hurts me the most is their need to be approved when really their only giving into a dark hole. so many girls have eating disorders in 2012 and the numbers will sky rocket. there are alot of eating disorders out there. so many people think they are fat, or ugly. i am not telling you iv'e never felt that way, i have looked in the mirror and thought why?? but then i rememeber there is a god who loves me just the way i am. then i look in the mirror and i think why? then i remember what my youth pastor said "there will always be someone higher than you and there will always be someone lower than you". in the modeling world people are supposed to be a size zero for the sample sizes for a model they can go from a 6,4,3,2, and then finally a zero, the models still have to try and fit into the clothes. i recently just got done with a book "hungry"  and i showed how hard it was this one adgent said she'd be perfect if she lost weight. really? i want to know what was going through that persons mind at the time anything you say about someones weight or how they look can lead them to any eating disorder it could be anerexia, or bulimia, or death. a girl i know comes up to me and says she looks pregnant because she thinks she is so fat, i said to here "don't even think that your beautiful!" yes she looked at me strangly but i don't care! as long as someone gets it through to her that she is not fat. one of the girls i know also only weights less than shes supposed to and that is her fault. my heart yearns for these girls. i recently read some anerexia quotes and all the girls feel stuck. i find this so sad, all i want to do is go out and help these girls. there is a thing on tv where girls lay down on a big piece of paper and measure how fat they are. then someone comes along and traces them and shows them that they are not fat. some girls think that they are to fat to be loved or to ugly to go out into the world. but my message to all the girls is that. you are NOT fat god made you beautiful the way you are!" i honestly sometimes wonder why?? too but i have many things that get me through, girls from 10-18 mostly think that they are so fat that they are so sickening to the world that it is better if they don't live. and for all the other girls that are happy with there body, good job but all the other girls out there our sisters in christ are in a black endless hole and we all need to help them out. every single girl on this earth is a beautiful creature there is this quote that will stick with be through the rest of my life- " girls are like apples on trees. the best ones are at the top of the tree. the boys dont want to reach for the good ones because the are afraid of falling and getting hurt. instead they just get the rotton apples from the ground they are'nt as good but they are easy. so the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with thm but in REALITY THEY ARE AMAZING. they just have to wait for the right boy to come along the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree". girls you are beautiful don't let anyone say you are not and not think that because it is so not true, and if you think that you are to ugly and fat for a guy to ever notice you then wait, wait for him because somewhere in this world there is every girls prince charming. i get put in a bad mood or cry when a girl my age or older lifts up there shirt looks in the mirror and crys out "why??".

2 more months

only 2 more months till we go 2 china!!!!!! yah!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so excited!!!

1st person

i think of adoption as a chance to spend with your forever child. one of my friends lori printy is in china getting her little girl. i remeber china as it were yesturday when i read blogs about arriving in bejjing. i just want to go there and have the same experiances but better, when we arrive at the hotel and it's time for bed. zander in is new clothes falls asleep and then the next day and the next ect. i would be in china with my new baby brother. then when we return its a whole new experiance for him i bet. i can just see it as lori described it "finally the day has arrived".

sorry!

haven't wrote in like forever! sorry! well, lets see there is some news what was it...  WERE GETTING A LITTLE BOY FROM CHINA!!:) his name is zander. he has one dimple just like me! they say he likes food, baths, and to be cuddled he had heart problems and leg problems but they are fixed. he has one lazy eye and they said we are going to correct it with surgery but it's one of the easiest surgeries!